Response to my Ad

I am encouraged in my search to be a cuckold again. I have gotten a real response from a woman local to me to my craigslist ad.

Very intriguing woman

We chatted via Yahoo Messenger for quite a while. Describing each others desires both kinky and vanilla. Getting to know each other, a very pleasant conversation.

Unfortunately she asked the question about my height... she had asked previously if I was attached to my facial hair (which I am not), but I can't change my height. So that was a deal breaker for her. She is 5'7", while I am 5'6". She said she knows it is shallow but her submissive needs to be taller than her. I can understand and appreciate her decision. It sucks that she and I won't get a chance to see if we connect on other levels simply due to my height.

But that is her choice. The search will continue.

Ruined Orgasms Redux (blog)

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Receiving Oral Sex

helpmate hubby asked me the following question:

Do you ever miss her giving you oral sex?

My answer:

God yes i did. i had never been able to orgasm while a woman was sucking my little penis.

That initially really bothered my wife when we first started to date so she tried very hard. But was never successful.

Many years later after i had become her cuckold and she had a lover living with us. She tried again.

It was absolutely mind blowing. She was finally successful. i don't believe i have ever felt anything like orgasming while being sucked.

Right after she had swallowed my little sissy load, she went into her lover's bedroom and proceeded to do the same with him.

That was the last time she ever sucked my little penis. Months later i asked if it was because she wanted my first time orgasming in her mouth to be the last time i ever got to feel her mouth on me...

She just smiled and said "of course"

That was probably close to 6 years ago. The last time my little penis was sucked by a woman... and i miss it every day. It both excites and humiliates me (cuckold paradox) that there are many men that have their cocks sucked on a regular if not daily basis. Feeling themselves orgasming into a woman's mouth. Something that is not for me.

Socks

I am working on a new post so until I finish enjoy this picture of a woman in socks.

btw: it has been 12 days since my last orgasm. Due to the amount of stroking that I have done so far today, my balls are really aching (blue balls). I hope to go at least 14 days though before orgasming.

Out of Town

Will be back later this week. Look for a new "cuckold" based posting either Thursday or Friday.

Ruined Orgasms (blog)

When Mistress Tells..and the myth of ruined orgasms post from Owned by Mistress Rachel is a good one.

My body and mind is just craving to be under the control of a woman. To be teased, to be tortured, to beg, to serve, and to submit to her desire...

While at the same time i am begging for an orgasm, my mind and body's single purpose is to please my Mistress and to provide her orgasms or any other activities that will bring her satisfaction as often and frequently as she desires or craves.

i haven't been exposed to "ruined orgasms" in the past, but i think i would agree with the writer of the post. Any orgasm is a great thing, ruined or not.

As a cuckold kept in chastity, kept in denial... any type of orgasm would be appreciated and thanked to my Mistress.

Cuckold Discussion on FLR Board

Update 3/22/11: Unfortunately the below forum is gone.

i have recently found and started to read a great forum called Female Led Relationships.

i wanted to highlight the discussion around "cuckolding".
Enjoy!!

http://www.female-led-relationships.com/forum/index.php?topic=28.0

Orgasm via Masturbation

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Ad That I Reponded To

Here is an ad that I responded to via craigslist.org. The ad is intense, it would be interesting to chat with her about it.

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Looking for a submissive cuckold man who knows his place - w4m

Is at my feet. Massage my feet while I watch TV. If you are good you can suck my toes. A few times a week I'll expect to be woken up with your mouth on my clit. Lick me until I cum then thank me for the priveledge. On very special occasions I'll let you lick and suck on my asshole. A plus for guys who appreciate my golden nectar. In the middle of the night if I have a full bladder I want your mouth on me in an instant to act as my toilet so I don't have to walk to the bathroom. You will drink every drop I give you and be thankfull for it.

As a cuckold you will expect and want me to service other men. I have several men I am fucking regularly and when I come home from a night of partying my pussy will usually have at least one very large sperm load in it. Instead of taking a shower I expect you to clean me with your mouth. You will lick up any cum that may have dripped onto my panties and lick the cum off my pussy lips. Then I will expect to feel your mouth sucking my hole to get any sperm out still inside me. One of my lovers cums like a fire hydrant so you can expect to get your fill of protein.

And one of the reasons I am posting this ad is once you and I have established our cuckold/slave master relationship I will be going off birth control and will be getting pregnant shortly after by one of the guys I am fucking. The baby will be bi-racial (the father will be black) and you will be happy about this. You will know your duty is to take care of me when I am pregnant and of the child after he or she is born. I expect you to babysit in the evenings while I am out trying to put another bun in my oven. I want to have 3 children before I am 30 and each time I am pregnant I expect you to massage me and my growng belly nightly. After the impregnaton I also expect you to write a letter to the Father of my child thanking him for his sperm and assuring him you will happily raise his child. You should also include a check for a few hundred dollars as just a small token of your appreciation. I also expect you to thank him for filling me with his seed so that I could allow you to lick it out of me.

I am young but I am experienced with this lifestyle. If you have no clue what I am talking about or think I am out of my mind then you should have quit reading with the first sentence -- and any emails to me criticizing me or preaching to me will be summarily deleted without being read. This post is for the true cuckold. the cuckold who probably ha sa little experience but is definately commited to this lifestyle. It is not for the poser or the fantasizer. It is for the man of action who knows his place is to submit to me. If this is you read on.

You don't have to be rich but you should have a decent job - you will be raising my children afterall. I am actually pretty good looking if I do say so myself. When I wear a short skirt and blouse heads do turn. However, I do not expect you to be good looking. I am not getting with you for your looks. You can be 60, balding and weigh 400 pounds - but if you meet all my requirements you will do just fine. I am looking for a man of uncommon obedience and submissive. A type of man who will gladly go without sleep even though he has to work in the morning just because I gave him permission to suck my toes all night. A type of man who thinks my piss tastes like the finest champagne money can buy and will be extremely dissapointed if I were to waste itby flushing it dwn the toilet. A man who will adore my children because they are a part of me and came out of my body.

If you think this might be you email me and we can go from there. I do not need to see a picture of you. I do not care what you look like or how big or small your dinky do is. I do care about your enthusiasm to my endeavor and you know how to please a mistress.

Corner Time

i was given "corner time" a couple of times due to breaking a rule while i was serving Master Oak via online.

First time was for an hour, standing with my nose pressed up against the wall.



The second time was for 10 minutes, kneeling with four clothes pin on my little balls.



Both times i found corner time to be very intense. Being in the corner caused me to think about my servitude, my submission, what i value in it and to re-make the committment to my owner and to myself to be submissive as my body and mind require of me.

Stroking...

Since my post about Orgasms (Lack of Privacy), i have been finding myself every night stroking my little penis.

i have yet to orgasm but i am finding myself constantly touching my self.

The post called Orgasms on Her househusband's life is simply amazing. i can't help looking at that picture. Imagining it was me, feeling my Mistress's hand on me. Desperately wanting to orgasm, but not being allowed to. Begging but being told that i should be grateful just to feel her hand and i will NOT be feeling the pleasure of an orgasm.

Orgasms being her pleasure, her privledge, and she will need to feel many many more before she will even start to think about my next one.

Response I got from my ad

Here is a response that I got from my ad.

Enjoy! I have replied back to her so we shall see where it goes. I am always hopeful...

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hello...

i love what you had to say...however, i wish to be clear - My desire is to become a SLUTWIFE! If you're not sure that this is for you, or that my look isn't for you, please move on!

In any case, I'm college educated, have worked in the public sector most of my working career, and at the moment on a very much needed sabbatical. I was born and raised in the Bay Area, and reside in XXXXXX (X'ed out to preserve privacy). I love travel whereever and to explore the bayarea. I movie nut and news addict. But, most of all, I'm a true freak - if I could fuck everyday, several times a day...it would be awesome! I love multiple sessions with men...and I'm dying for a multiple white man gang bang. I know that you may have heard/read those stories of cuckold husband constantly setting up fuckparties for his wife or getting her to fuck his bosses, at their house, while he is hard at work - that kind of shit turns me on...

Well...get back to me with your pic and number...should you wish to continue

Chastity Conversation (blog)

Update: Unfortunately the below blog is no longer in existence. I have been trying to find the posting and will continue to search for it.

i had an enjoyable conversation about chastity on the blog A Peek Inside of My Mind.

You can read it at: Chastity on My Mind

Birthday Jar (story)

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Orgasms (Lack of Privacy)

I had talked about the cuckold's lack of privacy previously.

One of the purposes of my blog is to be more open and honest to the world about my desires and thoughts. If I am fortunate to either be owned again or a cuckold, I want to use this blog to document my experience.

In the meantime, I can start now.

I will be documenting my orgasms on the blog. The date, the time, what material I was using (reading or watching).

Any other ideas from the readers of this blog?

Denial of Intercourse and the cuckold

Go read the great post called Cuckoldress denying hubbie sex question on the wonderful PunishedCuckoldHusband blog.

If J.J. isn't up for the concept and idea... I am! :)

Of course a relationship is so much more than just intercourse (in this case lack of for the cuckold), but this is something that does intrigue me.

I have been in a couple of relationships where my opportunities for intercourse were very limited to complete denied.

Having that "craving", that desire for intercourse every single day... with also the knowledge that it isn't for me. That my place in the relationship does not allow or require it.

To have limited opportunities, when my Mistress believes I have started to accept my position and stop desiring/craving, to give me a reminder and to bring that level of frustrating desire back into my being.

The analogy that Ms. MacComb describes it perfectly:

Maybe think of it like this. You have two options (an example) one is a lifetime of great steaks but you have to eat them alone, the other is you never eat steak again but are with someone. The second portion means you can eat fish, chicken, etc, just no steak. So you could pass on this offer and be alone and lonely for the rest of your life or you could accept the offer and have a life time of sharing with a wonderful lady but will never get your dick inside her.

I would like the opportunity to make such a decision. I believe I know the answer...

Socks

I have a couple of new entries that I am working on. In the mean time, enjoy this picture.

btw: I have a huge sock fetish, I find women in socks very very sexy...

Watch or Wait

Roughly a week ago I posed a question to the readers of this blog. Here is my thoughts and opinions on the topic. My thoughts are cuckold based, I would love to hear from the woman's and other man's perspective.

Here is the topic:

What are your thoughts around a cuckold watching his wife get fucked vs staying at home and waiting? Do you have preference? Does one provided more satisfaction to the wife? To the cuckold? To the other man? I know many of you are thinking "it depends", if so, depends on what?

I believe watch vs wait question is best answered with a mixture of both.

Being a cuckold is all about the paradox, the sexual desire to be with the woman in your life and the denial of such activities. Helping to prepare her to meet another man and knowing that he will be undressing her. Wanting to be the one that brings her to sexual heaven and knowing that you don't have the ability.

The same applies to watching or waiting at home.

Watching is simply amazing and intense. Seeing her in pleasure, watching her body, seeing her in ways I have never been able to provide to her.

Waiting allows my imagination, my mind to race. Realizing as I am cleaning, doing the wash, or simply sitting on the couch... the woman in my life is feeling a man's cock slide into her, watching each others face as that union takes place.

My former experience with the cuckold lifestyle, consisted of me waiting at home almost exclusively. Ideally I would have liked to watch more, but that just wasn't to be with her.

One of my fondess memories is being in bed in nothing but panties and sissy feminine socks. Hearing my wife come into the house. Feel her body next to mine as she slid into bed. Her hand fondling my little penis as she told me about her night. My entire body on fire, my mind racing hearing the story from her, her hand rubbing on me. My body wanting to orgasm, trying hard not to beg... My wife expertly managing me, bring me to the edge, but not over.

And with the end of the story, a kiss on the lips, removal of her hand and to sleep she goes. Leaving me and my little penis hard and frustrated (with a big smile on face).

That sort of experience would not have possible if I watched every time. The mixture of watching vs waiting caused me to constantly think about it, to constantly hope that this encounter I might be allowed to watch. To not be in control, to be a active passive observer. It truly caused my sexual focus to be on her and not me. As I believe it should be.

I would love feedback both on my thoughts as well as writing style that anybody might have. One of the goals for me with the blog is to be able to articulate my thoughts better as well as to try to be clear with my thoughts in my own head. Any and all feedback will be appreciated.

Prostate Massage and Milking (blog)

Here is a posting from Mistress Nahemah's Journal:

Chastity and orgasm denial has always been a favorite subject of Mine, and art's as well. I've heard it said so many times that the way to prevent prostate cancer in boys that are in long-term enforced chastity is to milk them.

Read the rest of the posting at: "http://mistressnahemah.blogspot.com/2006/06/prostate-massage-and-milking.html">Prostate Massage and Milking (Link is no longer valid)

Update 3/21/11: I believe I have found the article as shown below since the link to the blog is no longer valid.

CONDITIONING: Once a week, over a period of three months, the sole sexual relief for the male should be through his being “Milked.” The procedure used is aimed at allowing him only the weakest muscle contractions as he reaches orgasm. Unless the slave is properly conditioned, he is likely to seek ways to increase his pleasure during the procedure. He will begin to clench certain muscles at the proper moment, thereby having stronger contractions and a more pleasurable orgasm. To acquire the ritual items, have the slave purchase all of the “Milking Equipment” and a well-finished box for storage. The box can be a nice locking tea caddy found at furniture stores in most malls.

He should then be ordered to keep the box and its contents in a place of honor. Perhaps his Mistress would like him to maintain a votive candle burning in front of it at all times. Or, she might like him to purchase an expensive silk cloth as a cover for the box. A chair (or ceiling hook – if you like your slave suspended on tip-toes) or other place should be established as the “Milking Place.” It should be used exclusively for this procedure. You want the subject to acquire strong association with the place and the equipment. The Mistress should wear one rubber glove on her “Milking Hand, during the process. By sight and the smell of the rubber, he will mentally unite the glove with the act of having an unsatisfying orgasm. After he is fully conditioned, when he is restrained in the “Milking Place” the mere act of the Mistress placing the glove on her hand may cause him to dribble out his slime. During conditioning there should be an established “Milking Time.” This should be the same day of the week, and hour of the day. The slave’s reflexes thereby are trained by his anticipation as the time draws near. He knows what is to transpire, and learns to produce that which his Mistress expects and desires.

MILKING: At the appointed “Milking Time” the slave is instructed to prepare the “Milking Place” and to present Mistress with the box containing the “Milking Equipment.” It is important that she use these terms, strengthening his association with them, and the procedure. He is then to assume a proper kneeling position and offer the box to his Mistress. She should delay accepting it until, under questioning as to his desires, the slave states, “Please Mistress, may I be Milked?” The Mistress should then announce that it would give her great pleasure to have his slime only trickle out of his organ. “Will you assist in accomplishing that, slave?” she asks. He agrees. She then tells him that if he has a strong orgasm, she will be most displeased. He agrees to make her happy. She then takes the box from his outstretched hands. Unlocking it she removes the wrist restraints and other bindings. She hands them to the slave and orders that he go and await her at the “Milking Place.” He is to kneel there and meditate on how he will assist in seeing that the “Milking” is the type desired to bring pleasure to his Mistress, not to him. After a proper delay, the Mistress enters the “Milking Place” and secures the slave. She then applies the restrictive device (ropes or strap) to his organ.

It is important that the restriction be rather secure around the root of the organ. You want to prevent semen from flowing up his urethra as much as possible. She does not rush any of this, rather takes her time and sees that she does it the same way each time. When he is fully restrained the glove is removed from the box. Mistress does this with great respect, as if the item is to be revered. Mistress can wear some special lingerie each time she performs the “Milking.” Reverently laying the glove atop his erection, she leaves to put on her special clothing. This puts the restrained slave alone with all of the physical items for his “Milking”. He is left there for several minutes, his anticipation building the entire time. Mistress returns, dons the glove, and begins the slow methodical “Milking”.

No lubrication is used, and the glove is not allowed to slide over the organ. At the first twitch, pulsation, or other indication of approaching orgasm, she quickly removes her hand. She does not resume the almost mechanical “Milking” for a full minute. Sixty seconds is a long time when excitement is high. It is, however, necessary to wait out the full time prior to resumption. This same routine is carried out again and again, ceasing each time that there is the slightest muscle twitch observed or suspected. During the sixty seconds that the “Milking” is not taking place, the Mistress should tell the slave how well he is doing, how much pleasure she will get from his having a dribble orgasm, how displeased she will be if he has strong contractions, how he must relax and not do anything to spoil her pleasure, etc. This, in conditioning terms, is the reinforcement stage. The grand finale is a little squirt from the cock slit, followed by his slime slowly oozing out. While this is occurring Mistress should again give positive reinforcement. Tell him that what is happening is what Mistress wanted, that it gives her great pleasure, that he is a good slave to please her, that once he is fully trained (I’d avoid telling him that he is being conditioned) he will be rewarded with a full orgasm on occasion. Tell him that before he can return to having full orgasms he must be completely trained in being “Milked.” Tell him that when he reaches the stage that his being “Milked” produces consistently “deliciously unsatisfying” orgasms, Mistress will consider a reward.

Pushing the Envelope (blog)

Interesting and correct post called Pushing the Envelope from On Female Dominance of the male blog. Great job saratoga!!

Enjoy!

Women That Enjoy Having A Cuckold

I haven't had success with my ad yet. I ended up posting it on craigslist.org, alt.com, collarme.com, and clubsissy.com.

I know they exists and will continue my search.

I did exchange emails with a wonderful woman in San Diego area that is looking for a cuckold.

Here is her email to me:

Aren't you sweet, adding Me to your admirers list. I prefer a photo to start. I'm very serious about My search for a cuckold ltr leading to marriage (if he would be so lucky for Me to decide that). I simply dislike wasting time if I know I'm not going to hold a physical attraction to My future cuck. I know that sounds strange since I'm only going to allow him access once within the relationship but I do love the power trip of having a gorgoeus cucky husband the type any other woman would die to have in their bed yet he's loyal to Me and makes a comittment to Me knowing his place in My life. Mmmm i can explain further if I like what I see.

The part that is interesting, exciting, and scary to me is "only going to allow him access once within the relationship"

I miss feeling that level of committment. I miss desiring to be everything to the woman I love, but knowing and being reminded daily that I can't and won't ever be.

The search will continue.

Woman Rules Roost (blog)

Woman Rules Roost is a favorite new blog of mine. The wife and husband have a lifestyle/situation that I am ideally looking for.

Woman Rules Roost

About: When does a woman grab the reins of authority and become the decision maker in all things? When her husband, whom she deeply loves, says that this is a key to his happiness. Thus I start my journey into the world of female authority. I do not know if I can adapt to the role of superior female with all that means to our household and sexual lives. But I will try my best. I transcribe my experiences here, and ask for help from other women who have travelled this path before me.